There!

Right now I am feeling frustrated.  I do not want to look at my father!  I understand that he did bad things.  I understand that he did bad things to a lot of people.  Yes, he even did bad things to me.  WHY do I have to write it?

  I DON"T WANT TO!!

He is a man now that is showing exactly how he was while I was growing up.  He has Alzheimer's and Dementia.  He is violent still.  He has no idea who anyone is.  He is trying to force his caregivers to have sex with him.  He is trying to force them to do what he forced me to do.  He is vulgar and racist.  His body is failing.

There!  I talked about my father.