The phone call led to a little more communication and setting a time to get together. Everything just fell together in a beautiful and unexpected way. Miss Jenn of Seattle was going to step into my life in a way that no one else ever had. I dreamed of this. I wanted this. I was sure I wanted it. Then when the day did arrive, I was a bundle of nervous excitement. Heck, I didn't know what to expect. I mean, I knew I was going to be given a spanking. Just all these other thoughts came soaring through my mind too. Would I be able to let myself go and step into the role of the little girl? And, if I did embrace that role fully, would she also treat that little me with care? Could I trust her with that? Looking back, I am sure my concerns were pretty normal, but I found out that I didn't have anything to worry about. I have done a lot of role-play and age-play before. Never before was I able to let go and dive right into being that little girl. Not the way that I did during that time. Miss Jenn got it all, the shy bashful little girl to begin with, quickly followed by the willful, stubborn, defiant one who had never ever had anyone discipline her before. She and I had decided on doing a mother/daughter scene. Tackling right off the bat my disrespect for any female authority figure, starting off with what should have been my first female authority. It was the right choice for me. Miss Jenn balanced so well the need for strict discipline with a heart full of care and concern. It was perfect for what she and I were playing out. Anyone who has gone to see Miss Jenn knows that she has no problem flipping that switch from what comes across as kind friend, to no nonsense strict disciplinarian! Experiencing that had a tremendous impact on me. She stayed in character and dealt firmly with a defiant, tantrum throwing little girl. That little girl me did not want to obey her and did a lot of protesting! Staying true to what I imagine would be a maternal authority figure in every good sense of that position, Miss Jenn dealt with every action that little me gave her! I was told why I was going to be punished and when I complained and said that she had never done that to me before, she acknowledged that she hadn't and told me that she DID know that it was long overdue. Every act of willfulness on my part was met with her own willfulness, and guess who won out? Sure, wasn't the little girl me. Miss Jenn was so in-tuned to me and what was going on in me that even the hesitations on my part, the stalling, was met with *Crie Lin, I said now.* No yelling, just a firmness and my full name that sliced through my rebellion almost instantly.
Miss Jenn is most definitely a Spanker! She IS a professional disciplinarian. I was given the longest most intense spanking of my life. She addressed real things from my past and let me know in no uncertain terms that I would no longer be getting away with them. She reached in and touched that little girl part of me, reassuring that little girl that things would be different from now on. Even letting me know that even though I had been so naughty for so long and getting away with it, that did not make me a *bad* girl. I was a good girl who received a very long overdue spanking for some very naughty things.
There is so much I could continue to say. So much that happened in that time together. Really though, right now I still just want to keep it to myself. I came away from it with an incredibly sore backside and a sense of freedom that I have never experienced before. She and I will be getting together more. She is a disciplinarian from Seattle and now too, she is my disciplinarian!
Thank You Miss Jenn!